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| The Realization |
[10 Nov 2009|12:05am] |
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I decided to ignore most posts of what is here and...release my feelings of my own annoyances :) because yes. Tis what a blog is meant for..at least for me.
I have, and have known others that take things really hard when people 'leave' your life and don't seem to care, or look back. It isn't per say..someone gets 'too busy' or life just 'gets really crazy' and they find it hard to keep it touch.
they just...don't seem to care, hold something that happened against you, and/or kind of abandon you...or at least that is what it feels like.
Whether it's on livejournal related things, other network sites (facebook, myspace) or just not answering phone calls. Sometimes they are even HUGE hypocrites about it saying 'why did someone do this.?!" and then in the end...they do the same thing to other people. Go figure.
So that being said.... I hope others as well as myself, are able to move on from this. There is no sense in holding resentment, anger, or anything against someone else or a particular situation. It just drags you down from being your best self.
So here's to looking toward the benefits that life offers 'us'... and not just focusing mainly on the drawbacks in life that gets one down.
Move past it, be a better person from it, and look toward better, bigger..and more pwnful awesomeness things.
I am not sure how more often I will blog on this..but I'll keep it up. And well, most people that matter know where to find me...and that's good to know ^_^ Signing off.
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The world is too short to know hypocrites :P
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[12 Feb 2008|12:51pm] |
I haven't written in this thing in forever. which is kind of pointless than eerm..why keep it? heh. I'm more of a myspace person anyway. There's more to do, and i don't know..catches my attention more.
I have an interview for an internship soon (less than 1 hour ). I should be looking forward to this, but eh..I'm sort of *blah* about it because the lady sounded like of annoyed about the whole idea on the phone. you know those kinds of people that aren't very happy with what they do, but know that it would be benefical to TRY to mentor peoplle? so yeah. that's this situation.
oh well. should be going now..*waveS*
edit - and oh yeah..don't delete me! I still go back (even if I don't post much) to catch up with everyone :D
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| Men Confuse Me. |
[29 Mar 2007|02:28am] |
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Why do they always confess their feelings for someone when they know, for a fact..that the person is in a relationship? argh.
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[05 Dec 2006|08:13am] |
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Just posting an entry, just to post! :D It seems everyone is busy, so I'm not sure how many will actually read this...but anyway, life has been going good as it can. Sure, there have been ups and downs, but yeah..as with life. :} I have a stats class tomorrow and it will be my last test before the final next week. It's weird how quick this semester just flew by! Sort of shocking. lol....I've finally arranged myself to talk to a someone who's coming from CSUMB on Weds. I need to figure questions to ask her... ^_^ but I will hopefully transfer there within a year from now (possibly a full year and in 2008 in the Spring, since I think I missed the deadline to apply in the Fall). I've finally have become more in comfort with the idea that what may work for others within their life, won't necessarily work best for me . And that's ok :) I just have to get a couple of questions that I could ask....what do people usually ask when they go thru this type of process? any questions of help one could post would be wonderful! :D
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[06 Nov 2006|10:37am] |
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hmm..I wonder if anyone actually ever reads what I post. ^_^ *pokes journal page*...heh...
being tired + being late = strange mood to be in...
so with that in mind, yes! off to bed :D
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| A continuation from the last post... |
[25 Oct 2006|07:43pm] |
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So I just read thru my last entry and it seems somewhat more depressing than I meant it to be.? hehe. and it says that I posted it around 6am in the morning..which was strange since It was about 12:30am when I posted that and then Adam called me on my cell so I stopped abruptly.
I'm trying to really not take things like broken/distant frienships so personally...I know everyone gets busy, but it still hurts a bit when people promise otherwise. (especially when the downfall of the friendship seems to happen shortly after the promises to maintain it).
But with all the negative stuff, it's strange because within the last week or so I sort of dug myself out of that...I mean, who seriously wants to be depressed all the time and really upset and be like "woe is me!" all the time? that really sucks and is a crappy way to live life ^_^ Sure there's going to be ups and downs, but trying to always be in the negative and thinking that way is just a real pathetic way to live life....so I'm trying to be as postive and just trying to remember the positive things I have and those around me who are there for me and want to reach out to me. I just want to look upward and live life fabulous-ley with whatever comes with it...so yeah. upward and fabulous. that's it :)
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| Just Reflecting :D |
[25 Oct 2006|06:05am] |
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Through the past few months I've been somewhat down about stuff...somewhat dealing with the fact that within my life, I keep feeling that I'm betrayed by people or have people break promises to me. I dont really understand why I always take this so personally..it isn't like, I only have ONE friend in the world or anything; but my problem has always been..I wanted friendships like I see on TV :P (a stupid dream, I know) but you knw those types of friendships..where you feel you two really know each other, understand each other, and will always have each others back and won't betray the other. Well, I know things happen by for like the last 3 months I had someone who has been doing that to me..which is slightly strange because the last time this person and I talked, we had promised (or else, she had) that she wouldn't do that. I know people sometimes don't mean to...but they can go back on their word.
And now I'm just pondering, is it just that I value friendships a lot more than most people do? Adam and I have talked about it and it seems that apparently, sometimes only children try to develop and take friendships a lot more seriosly than those who are siblings (which in a way makes no sense, since now all siblings get along). But I'm starting to think..that maybe that's partly true. Maybe I just feel/want to always keep connections with people and when I finally let them in to that way and things somewhat fall thru later...I take that whole experience twice as hard? maybe thats it...... :) (to be continued)
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| Work Life, Etc. |
[09 Oct 2006|08:15am] |
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Work is work :P Things at work can get interesting though..there's many amusing people there, which makes the enviroment entertaining enough; The downsides are the shifts from 3 to 11pm. :( Because of working over 35 hours per week, along with doing school..things are getting a tad too bit busy for me, which is partly why I didn't want to work during school...you end up having not enough time for everything and the things you could do when you do have the time, you simply do not want to work on it
Because I'm taking a Math 16 class, that's already hard for me because it's well...MATH. Math and I never really got along ^_^ and I didn't do too well on the last quiz so I really need to push myself to get everything done that I need in that class so I can stay caught up...
sometimes I'm thinking I'm just gettinb burned out on school in general. I know everyone is on their little path to where it takes him/her, but it's always been somewhat hard to see others progress in their adventures, and to sometimes have to stay on the side line thinking "Yeah...one day, that's gonna be me!" It's just...awkard, I guess :) But I guess it doesn't matter how long it takes you, until you achieve of what you want to for yourself.
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| Job, Life, blah blah blah :) |
[31 Jul 2006|09:28pm] |
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I haven't updated in quite awhile, so I figured, why not start again? I've been working recently (just within the last week or so) at Target! :D The job is alright; just basically cleaning up the store to make it look pretty, customer service, and being a cashier when need be. Things aren't too difficult and they're going along rather ok. The only thing that really sucks about the job is the pain my feet endure by the end of the day..other than that, no real problems.
Even though I just started working, I was able to put in time for a week off when Adam arrives here on August 11th--- Yay! (which was dueable since about 300 people work there in all)
Adam's staying for 1 week again (like always) so that'll be nice since we haven't met up since last January. So things are going good with that as well :)
This summer seemed somewhat uneventful, but it's nice to know that things are coming along at a quicker pace at the end of everything
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| Weird Al Yankovic Song :D wee! |
[16 Jun 2006|07:49pm] |
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I was Vh1's 20 countdown thingy..and that over-played song, "Your Beautiful" song by James Blunt was on there, but not before it was shared that Weird Al wrote a parody on it :D lucky me. You can download the song easily and it's even offered on his Website, www.weirdal.com
just thought I'd share the info with people, since I think some of you are Weird Al fans ^_^ Below are the general lyrics if you just want to see what they are.
( My Life is Brilliant...Your Life's a Joke )
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| Random Blabbing :P |
[29 May 2006|09:45am] |
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Happy Memorial Day Everyone! :P hehe.
Things have been alright with school and everything. I ended up choosing to look into Social Work/Human Services, and will probably just go to CSUMB for that since I've heard it has a very good program and it wouldn't be too much for a drastic change for me.
I haven't studied for my final in my Women's Literature class, but I'm not too worried about it...I'll be ok :)
Speaking of personal changes, I will probably start seeing a counslor to deal with these type of things. My career counselor advised that to me, and even I have to agree that looking into the idea wouldn't be a bad one-- it would be free and beneficial :) I think I've had trouble trying to ask for help from others, but then if people are there to help..why not take it?
On more positive news, I'm going to graduate again and walk in MPC's ceremony for getting my Women's Studies AA degree. :) yay. I wasn't orginally going to do it, but friends advised me that if I'm going to complete something and work hard at it, I might as well celebrate my accomplishment :D
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| 11 o'clock pm reflection |
[15 May 2006|11:34pm] |
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Things have been going ok...it's a lot better to know that big class essays and whatnot are finished :) that's the best thing to know actually! :D
I don't know what it is..but the essays can just feel so thick and heavy to get started and then ..before you know it..all done! So I'm happy that's over with.
Oddly enough, Im not worried about my final for the Women's Literature class I'm in (which I honestly didn't like...I think I'm just tired of school and assigned readings); I've done all the class assignments with a 90% or higher, particpated, and now I'm just happy I have lots of time to ease myself down from stress and concentrate on my career counseling I'm having :) I will probably be going into some type of field in regard to social work...I'm not 100% sure what the actual major will be (since it could be human communication), but it will go along nicely with the Women's Studies AA I'll be getting at the end of June. woohoo! Another AA from MPC :P lol.
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| School, End of the Year activites, ^_^ stuff..lol |
[09 May 2006|09:35pm] |
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Classes are almost done now at MPC :) It's weird when this happens because it always seems like it hasn't been that long..lol (even though it always seems the opposite in the beginning).
I ended up getting an 100/100 on my paper I did for my English class :) It was on Shirley Jackson and her short stories..so yay! The only downside is that I have another paper due next Tuesday, but I'll manage..I just have to push myself not to do the whole thing at the last minute..then I might be ok :D
I haven't returned to my career counseling yet; which is kind of bugging me. It just seems a lot of things are fast paced this semester and all coming at once! I will probably try to look into either human resource type stuff or social work...I'm considering though just going into a human communications field though because that can work real good with the Women's Studies AA I'll be getting in June...I'm going to walk again lol..so that will be interesting.
I just also decided that it's a HIGH percentage I'll just go to CSUMB. A lot of people really want to get out of this area; but I'm the opposite and it's nice when I can finally admit that without feeling awkard. Not everyone wishes to follow the path of long distance college attending..and I'm one of them. :)
Right now the Women's Studies Club I'm in is trying to figure out what we want to do as our end of the semester party; hopefully that will be cleared up on our next meeting on Thursday.
[Edit - When I said I'll be going to CSUMB, I really have no idea when that may be...hopefully by next spring since I will still need to take classes at mpc to fullfill the requirement for transfering to the other college as shown on the assist.org site
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